Coraline’s Moon

moon in the clouds

Early this morning I dreamt I was laying on the deck looking up at the night sky.

It was chilly and maybe even frosty, but I recall not caring so much. Objects filled in the inconsequential periphery of my vision. They must have been a gas grill, a glass table, deck chairs, and faded plastic children’s sized deck chairs. A fat crescent moon was directly over me–horns pointing left.

Though it was clearly night time, sunset splashed clouds framed the moon in a ragged combination of white, dark gray, orange, yellow, red, and maybe vibrant rust. They were pasted to the thick blue sky, but over time I could tell they were changing. I wanted to capture the view, but I did not want to miss it either.

I had time to go get the camera.

Rushing back out to the deck, I lay down for the same effect as before and saw through the viewfinder that the clouds had sped up–almost to a roil. The the inside-warm camera body and lens drew moisture from the air like that arm-sized magnet my Grandpa owned drew shavings from the soil around his driveway.

What I wanted moved too fast to capture and what I had to capture it with had failed.

Putting the camera down to the deck I watched the clouds suffocate the moon in plain colorless shades until it was unable to even limn the occlusion. The sky was black now and void of stars.

I woke up.

Before we went to bed, your Mother and I had been talking about taking more pictures of you.

Coroner Stories

I am quoting my own comment here at the bottom, but I think that if you are coming to this site and not linking over to Coroner Stories from time to time, you should.

A. Douglas writes:

Blood and guts aside, death investigation was—and continues to be—the antithesis of what I consider to be a “normal� job. The kind of job where a person produces something tangible or at the very least goes to work with established tasks to accomplish. Instead I feel like an auto mechanic that was hired to respond to every car breakdown in the city wherever and whenever one occurs. Like a conventional auto mechanic, I can make diagnostic impressions, but unlike an auto mechanic, every vehicle I look at is beyond repair.

My comment back, based on an overall impression of his blog:

I think this post inadvertantly ties in with alot of the comments I have been reading on your blog, those in the “Wow, I couldn’t do your job.� vein.

You clearly have a job and a role in society that needs to be performed–we can’t just leave the dead lying around. If your readers’ comments are a reflection of the populace at large it’s clear that most have no desire for such work. So, on a purely utilitarian level you do have a product at the end of the day, you have accomplished something. It may only seem that it was to keep things tidy around the city, once again allowing the rest of us to ignore death and tragedy for another day. But you have to know its more than that too.

If it was only about the bodies, you wouldn’t take the time to humanize your stories–which is what I find in your posts and what I have found others find as well. What you have been presenting us with these past months is more than a clinical run down of the facts. You have shown us humor, comedy, suffering, and sympathy.

That kind of breadth of experience is exactly what I find missing in my mundane 9-5 job. I pump souless papers across my desk, it’s not intriguing, it’s not worthwhile, and it’s not terribly satisfying for my heart.

I won’t argue that you haven’t become desensitized to both the grim and the sad aspects of the job, but I will assert that you have become desesitized at a depth that most of us won’t reach in our work.

Thanks for illuminating my understanding each week.

Enjoy!

Backpack

Backpack

Backpack from 37 Signals looks to be my next favorite and actually USED web app.

Here’s my discovery path if you can believe it:

  1. started looking for good definitions of ‘rubric’
  2. got a page referring to ‘ruby on rails’–no idea how
  3. got all warm and fuzzy for the ‘next big thing’
  4. RSSd Loud Thinking
  5. signed up for Basecamp (cool)
  6. signed up for TaDa List (nice enough)
  7. heard about Backpack too late to get or beg for a ‘Golden Ticket’
  8. signed up today with the rest of the regular world

Others have raved about it’s usable and clean interface, so I won’t bother–I agree. More have talked about how it’s just what they have been looking for–I agree. I want to talk about it’s longevity.

Like the PDF, Google, and the blog, I am not sure how we got along without something this useful nor how we would get along if it went away. This is an app that I immediately saw myself using forever.

I have started converting all my to do lists over to this format because, unlike TaDa List, I can integrate them with other tools I like to have at hand: reminders and general note taking. I haven’t splurged for the paid account yet, but will be as soon as I can find where I put my wallet (no PayPal payment option?).

Once I am paid up, I will find out how the Sharing and Picture posting goes. I see myself using those features less since there’s flickr and I am not a person to share this sort of information, but the stuff I plan to use is easily worth the $5 a month option.

Don’t waste you time listening to what I have to say, go see for yourself.

CFF: Month One

CFF Month One

Dear Coraline,

You have been a month with us so far and there really isn’t much to tell. You started out at 6.6875 lbs and 19.5 inches and now you are 8.375 lbs and 22.5 inches–mom is skeptical about the length, but there is plenty of squirming.

You do things differently than your sister and that’s mainly what I am here to talk about.

Tessa got to live in a world without you for 15 months, but you will always live in a world with her. I want to assure you that I will always strive to not make comparisons between you two. No, “Tessa walked at 10 months, why can’t you?” or “Tessa got A’s in math, but you can’t even get a C?” It’s just not fair to do that or to think that way.

A couple other things I will avoid:

  • referring to you as my ‘second daughter’ and her my ‘first daughter’
  • referring to you as little sister or her as big sister

Now that doesn’t mean I won’t ever say you are the second born or her the first, but I won’t introduce you that way at first. My aim here is to outwardly force myself to choose words that allow you to be your own person and not to be defined by comparison to another and to therefore have my brain operate the same way.

Here is what I know about you so far:

  • you are wrinkly
  • your head is round
  • your eyes follow my face or fingers without turning your head
  • you have long feet (I am seriously thinking of calling you ‘Rabbit’)
  • you don’t drool alot
  • your hair is a dark blonde, like mine I think

I am really looking forward to getting to meet you as you grow older.

Dad